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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:33
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When I was fifteen, I cheated on my boyfriend at the time. Not once, but twice. Both times he came back, and he still loved me. Or so he says. I was obsessive. I didn't trust him, at all. He gave me no reason not to trust him, but I didn't anyway, because I had troubles trusting people. I broke up with him countless times, for different reasons. Either because I felt I didn't want to be with him anymore, or because he was annoying, or I didn't want to make him deal with his parents because they thought I changed him and they didn't like what I did to him. I wasn't planning to get a boyfriend, nor was I planning to do what happened to break his trust, but it happened. I'm not elaborating more on that. Anyway, we argued a lot. Almost everyday. We were happy when we didn't argue for that day, but something the next day eventually happened to annoy either him or I. We always found stupid ways to make up, though. We wrote each other long paragraphed letters, telling the other how much we loved each other. We'd Webcam everyday, and just tell each other maybe ten or less times each day. We'd have long conversations, or sometimes we wouldn't at all. We'd find ways to make time to spend with each other, because he lived in Florida and I, Georgia.

Three months in, I believe was the second time I cheated. He cried, and cried, and all I could do was apologize. I vowed to do better, and that I'd change, but it didnt happen. I'd still get mad and cause arguments, and he'd do the same. Sometimes I even ignored him when he wanted to talk to me, and I didn't feel like dealing with him. So when he left me, that's when everything changed. The day he left, he hadn't texted or called at all even when I was waiting for him, so I decided to text him. He was acting strangely, he seemed distant. We barely talked at all that day, and I just knew something was going to happen and I called him when he was out at a restaurant. He flipped out and said he was with his mom, and that I was annoying him so I just hung up and went to bed after telling him to break up with me then. I didn't think he would take it literal, but apparently he did because the next day, he told me that he didn't love me anymore and he's sorry and blah blah.

I flipped out, and begged and pleaded until i annoyed him and he blocked me on Facebook. Then I continued trying and trying because I thought there was someway that I could convince him to come back to me, and I just had to continue fighting for him. Well, lets say, that didn't work out at all in my favor, and it just made him hate me more. So, I decided to play the victim, I told him he hurt me and that he made me feel like other girls were better than me, but he didn't budge. So I gave up and admitted my wrongs. I cried and cried for two months, though I know it was my fault and I caused it and I tried to fix it. I confused myself by thinking he still cared sometimes, and I was confused about my own feelings. I wanted to get over him, then I wanted him to be with me, then I hated him, then I loved him.

I'm sixteen now. I can honestly say i've finally given up on him. No matter how I tried to fix what I did wrong, he was done and it was done. I still miss him, but I know most of you wouldn't forgive what I did and he wouldn't either. I've changed, it just took me too long to do it.


Tl;dr: I cheated, he left, I moved on.
Authors Note: Now Mori and Nick, its all out there. Nothing is hidden. And i' m not playing the victim anymore. So you both can go fuck yourselves and get over yourselves.
  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:34
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Ok too long for me too read....So Imma say LoL...
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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:35
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Its not too late, its never too late

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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:37
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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:37
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Intresting.
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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:38
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Some relationships just aren't meant to work out, y'know? It may have seemed good, or even great, at the time - but with the apparently massive track record between you two, it seems like too much has happened. I'm glad you've moved on though! And you've obviously done well in growing up since you told this story from your own perspective, but didn't make yourself seem totally innocent like most do.

So, props to you for maturing and being honest with us, and I hope you feel better and find the one!
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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:38
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Uhmm, you cheated on him.
He should be the one NOT trusting you.
  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:40
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naruto-vicio wrote:
Nigger.
  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:40
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Uhmm, you cheated on him. I wouldn't trust you either.
I know. I've changed, though. And he's dating someone else, so I dont care anymore.

Edit: I KNOW. I never trusted him when we were together because I dont trust people easily, as I said. Jesus, read.
  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:40
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Must feel good getting it all out


  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:42
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SilverTVerite wrote:
Some relationships just aren't meant to work out, y'know? It may have seemed good, or even great, at the time - but with the apparently massive track record between you two, it seems like too much has happened. I'm glad you've moved on though! And you've obviously done well in growing up since you told this story from your own perspective, but didn't make yourself seem totally innocent like most do.

So, props to you for maturing and being honest with us, and I hope you feel better and find the one!
Ours obviously wasn't. It did, We were both naive. Thanks, i'm glad too. Thank you. Well, im not innocent, so im not going to fake it. I don't like lying to people. It only causes more problems.

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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:43
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Mint wrote:
SilverTVerite wrote:
Some relationships just aren't meant to work out, y'know? It may have seemed good, or even great, at the time - but with the apparently massive track record between you two, it seems like too much has happened. I'm glad you've moved on though! And you've obviously done well in growing up since you told this story from your own perspective, but didn't make yourself seem totally innocent like most do.

So, props to you for maturing and being honest with us, and I hope you feel better and find the one!
Ours obviously wasn't. It did, We were both naive. Thanks, i'm glad too. Thank you. Well, im not innocent, so im not going to fake it. I don't like lying to people. It only causes more problems.

Thanks. <3

My pleasure, hahah.
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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:43
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Ray09 wrote:
Must feel good getting it all out
Sort of, in a way.
  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:45
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It is nice to come off your chest isn't it..? I know that probably sounds harsh, but it must be nice to finally have it in the opening. People love you or hate you for it, the truth is all spilled out and that is why I love writing. It broke my heart because all I could think about was my most recent ex, mind you I didn't cheat. I just treated him like crap. Absolute crap. But that is besides the point.

The best thing, is to let go. Especially if it is for the greater good of everyone. Holding on hurts you, annoys him, and pisses him off. That just gets the hate to bury deeper and who is that honestly helping? It is better to say "Look, this is where it ended. We had good times, and it was fun but it's over not and I will still enjoy the memory of ou but you deserve to be happy." That's that too, if you truly love someone you prefer their happiness over your own because if their miserable, you are too. People don't realize how miserable you really can get by holding on. I am only digging myself deeper but you work on it. You work on it, you grow up, you lern to tust again.. sure it may be a slow process but you learn. You learn what was wrong and what you shouldn't do. You learn that it is best to take action then. You learn that not only do you have to think about your happiness but others too. Like the other person. You have to be honest with yourself and no, don't forget them. Don't forget the good times but don't forget the bad either. Remember them with a bittersweet sense but don't hold onto it expecting it will come back and be the same. Because it probably never will be. If it does come back, it won't be the same. If it doesn't, oh well. It's sad but true. It's going to take time but you'll learn that you can find someone who you can treat right but don't compare. Don't because you won't EVER find another relationship like that, or person like that and that is only going to hurt more. Each relationship, each love, each attatchment..? Is /different/ and won't be the same.

There is no best relationship, or worst I am starting to realize. There are feeling, you, and that person. Be happy with whomever you are currently with and don't fuck up. Don't compare, don't change, work on it. Don't make my same mistakes. He won't trust you again, and you can't blame him. He gave you a part of him he knew you could break and you did. He laid his trust in your hands and you shattered it. Not trying to sound harsh but on that part, only you are to blame. I've never cheated, I don't have the heart too. I'd get to guilty and admit to it all and burst out in tears and beg for forgivence and hate myself. I wouldn't be the same personally. Cheating isn't worth it, if you don't want to be faithful and in a relationship then don't. Be single.

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  Posted on December 4, 2012 21:45
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interesting
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